It's been just
over 4 months since my last drink and I had sober time before but like all the
times before I would find myself drinking again only harder and longer. This
time is different in that I have embraced AA and the Steps of AA. Every day I
ask my Higher Power to take my life and my will for the day. To give me peace
and a loving heart. I also work the Steps, most I try to work every day in some
sort of fashion but this morning was different.
This morning
while I was having quiet time with God I realized that I was finally living
life. You see before, while I was drinking and even before that, I never really
lived life. I just existed and did as little as I could to exist. You see I
never knew that you had to deal with feelings, defects of characters, short
comings and just normal self-growing. Maybe if I had done these things earlier
in life I wouldn’t be an alcoholic now. It was like I was ‘Seeing Life for the
First Time’.
In the last 4
months I have seen so many flaws in my character and I am ok with that now
because I want to work on them. I want to learn what real love is, how to be a
true friend and a sharing part of this world. There is some much to do but I am
letting God lead me in those things that I need to do Just For Today. If I
don’t do this I will be overwhelmed and lost.
I am so happy
to be sober today and it's like what some of the old timers say, “I don’t know
if God led me to AA or if AA led me to God”, but which every way it happened I
will never see life the old way ever again.
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