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Recently, my wife and myself, got a vacation cabin up in the Great Smoky Mountains for our parents, just outside of Pigeon Forge and rented a beach house for ourselves. The last year has been filled with ups and downs, and some time off to rest and have fun ~ which was so needed.
Just some quick background: I am a recovering alcoholic and had been sober for right at 18 months. My wife and I had been divorced and re-married, and life was truly better than it had ever been. But we were talking about making some very big life changing decisions. We are planning to sell the business that my wife helps the parents with, and move to Alabama. It's a big step with a lot of unforseen challenges ~ and THIS leads me back to something that happened on our vacation...
To help our parents out, we went with them to Pigeon Forge on our way to Florida, just to get them settled in. The cabin was way back off a main road and up a mountain.. As we drove around sharp curves and up hill slopes, I came to a point in the road at the top of the mountain, where the road would go down the other side. The problem was, I could not see the road because of the steep slope on the other side. Knowing that it should be there, I slowly drove forward, starting down the other side adn then the road came into view.
This got me thinking about when I was still drinking and even soon after rehab, I would fear where life was leading me. Like that mountain peak, I had no idea what was on the other side. Would I just drop off and fall to my death? Fear would keep me from seeing beautiful views and enjoying life like I was seeing at that moment. I now have a Higher Power that I turn my will and life over to each day. But would I trust Hm with my tomorrow?
You see, I may not be able to see the road that will lead us on our move to Alabama, or any other challenge to come my way, but have to trust that my God has it worked out, and as the road comes into view, I will see the curves ahead and make changes as needed.
As you take the steps you need in recovery, your fears will become smaller. You will see things more clearly. But you also need to remember, never to stop taking steps. Keep trusting the process and turning it over to God.
Sherman Brewer
April 2, 2002
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